a young teen came into my tent at a local art
festival. She lingered for a while and
was mesmerized by this piece.
She then told she could relate to the the
whole shelter scene. Hugging me with tears.
The fact that we connected on some level for a moment was a
gift in itself.
I felt thankful for the opportunity to could give her a print.
I can't erase my memories. the nightmares I see
when I am still awake. I am lonely. I am cold and shivering. I am just a child, it is not right.
but it is my reality. My reality. I can't sugar coat it .
..It is ugly. It is where I am......I have no support. I have no friends.
Wishing for another life won't fix my problems. Each day I decide I will be strong. I will be somebody...I will belong. I will hold my head up high...I will fight...
.I will be free ...I will control my destiny. Each day I will move forward...and figure it out.
I say I am strong.......but do I believe that?? I say I am worthy..but do I believe that??
The truth is I don't think that I matter. I don't think I can fight. but it is the only way I can see the light. So I tell my self again and again I can do this. No one else can fix my life.
I can do this. I can do this!!!! I will make myself see. ....I will fight.
actually...I am better than them.
Cause I would never hit my kid or expose them
to things they should never experience. I will be a mom that will
make cookies and tucks her kids in. I will do this .....I will keep moving forward and try.
I don't know why my lpast was unfair..but it does not matter.. I do not care.
I will not be them.. I won't let them win. I would never abandon my family. I will help my kids with homework even though I can barely read.. I will grasp...I will endure I will bleed..!!! .
where ever I came from.. I won't forget. I wont let my self because I don't ever want to go back there...I am better than that. I can do this.... Yes...
I can do this..... words and drawing by Rhonda Barber
Bless all of those
young soldiers out there fighting to believe in themselves in spite of lives circumstances.