I do get mad and out of control.
I hate that I am becoming what I hate the most….
My step dad he picks on me and knocks me around.
He tells me I am worthless and puts me down.
My mom is scared of him and she ignores it all.
She walks away…. even when I am being slammed against a wall.
She says it is my fault, cause I aggravate him.
She needs his paycheck and a roof over our heads.
I would leave but I have a little sister and well she is my world.
If he goes after her…that is when I fail.
To control myself
I Fight for her.
I take the blow.
The pain stings my skin. But he comes
After me and not her.
So for now I win.
I bite, I swing, I throw things. The room starts to spin.
Everything goes dark…I fall to the floor.
I awake to a knock at the door.
The police are here. and I am charged with assault.
Really Me? I am the one with the problem?
Who is the adult?
They handcuff me and take me away.
I see my little sis as the cops drive away.
She waves through the glass and I pray she is ok.
I am almost 16 what can I do?
Something has to change.
How can I fix this? I wish I knew.
I have to try. My step dad can’t win.
I will figure a way out of this situation.
I will get a job and save cash.
The pain from his evil I will leave in the past.
I will work to get good grades so to have a better future.
My sister and I will break the chain of this torture.
We will endure and be better, stronger, and happy.
I will be my own self. I won’t be angry.
I decide who I am.
I will become myself in spite of my foundation.
I am here to make my destiny. I am free.
My step dad is just an obstacle
He is unworthy,
but I am better than him…I will fight, I will believe
I am a warrior, I am a knight.
I will have a life that is worthy and kind
My sis and me will make....happiness...